Holy frap, you continue to impress. When I asked the question I had no
idea you would be able to answer it across time as well.
Speaking of FATs, I used to have nightmares where the FAT in my brain was
corrupted and I could no longer be sure which of my memories were valid,
or were other memories mis-assigned to that marker. I could tell this in
the nightmare because a grid of red dots would be superimposed over my
visual field that was somehow the "system warning" in my brain that the
FAT was corrupted and nothing was what I thought it was. When I woke up
from these nightmares I could not snap out of it, but the terror would
remain that I wouldn't really know if this was my bed, if that was really
a "telephone," and I would have to go back to sleep to allow my brain to
reset. I remembered that recently when considering the rash of TV shows
that have people with "chips implanted in their brains." I hate it when my
brain's FAT gets corrupted. And you thought you were crazy.
Re: Knox Mar Det '97, that constellation of time-date-location makes me
want to think, but I will settle for, I spent a lot of time with Roger
Angell from the Mar Det around that time, did you know him?
Also, someone back during that exile period said to me, "If you meet the
Dave on the road, kill the Dave." Whether he was comparing me to Buddha or
just wanted to kill me, I don't recall.
> It was in my Traveller/TNE/archive folder... First on my Athlon 900 then
> my
> P4 VAIO and now on my macs and in the cloud on my Gdrive. After losing the
> FAT on my old Pentium 60 in the mid 90s, I became obsessed with manual
> backups and would burn to CD then DVD and now uploading my files from RPG
> to site archives, spreadsheets, etc. Biggest problem I have from the
> earliest era is I liked to use MS Write for some reason which usually
> leads
> to gibberish in most modern programs that I sift through before converting
> to Word or text.
>
> I was actually in Knox from May through August of 97 (in fact I remember
> picking up Regency Combat Vehicle Guide at the mall in Louisville someone
> around then) with the MarDet at the USAAC learning the Abrams so found out
> about it later when I became involved with TNE-RCES. I emailed you direct
> somewhere in 98 or 99 probably and then drifted away when my gaming group
> split up until finding COTI in 2002.
>
> - Sent from my SM-N900T
> On Mar 26, 2014 6:13 PM, <> wrote:
>
>>
>>
>> Blech.
>>
>> My head is pounding and my ears are ringing. Thanks for sending that,
>> Uxi,
>> and thanks for pointing out that that existed, Mario. While I will say
>> some things below about not wanting to read it, I am grateful that when
>> there is evidence out there that I lived on this planet and spoke with
>> people I have the chance to see it and be reminded of things I had
>> forgotten. Whether I enjoy it or not, the truth is the truth and I wish
>> to
>> be informed by the truth.
>>
>> I read down a little bit and saw some stuff I still don't remember.
>>
>> I do remember the "going on survival rations" part. We called it
>> "Operation Mudfish," inspired by a French operation in Chad, I think,
>> but
>> I didn't remember that period until I just read about it. That would
>> have
>> been the period after the doctrine development project got shot out of
>> the
>> saddle by ATSC and before our first distance learning contract.
>>
>> (During the late doctrine development period I do have the separate
>> memory
>> of the last time I ever spoke to Paul Brunette, recounted elsewhere.)
>>
>> I don't remember talking to anyone about TNE in 1997 (except Brunette,
>> above). Clearly I did. We had been building the doctrine development
>> site
>> for the Armor School around this time (95-96-97), and the WWW was still
>> newish. Either I stumbled across me, or someone else in the office said,
>> "hey Dave, your name keeps showing up over here." I don't remember
>> hearing
>> that Marc was asking around about EW, although I do remember that no one
>> ever contacted me to ask. I don't remember sending e-mails out to follow
>> up which "disappeared behind a black curtain."
>>
>> I see that I was testy and irritable and got into a "he said/he said"
>> with
>> Harold which was unnecessary.
>>
>> I also see direct evidence there of what I said in reply to Jim a couple
>> days ago, "where there is a grain of truth..."
>>
>> And I guess I owe Harold another apology beyond the one about Children
>> of
>> Earth I mentioned recently, which is "Yeah, Harold, maybe I was going
>> through my own personal hell, sorry for trying to contradict you on
>> that."
>> Probably no one likes evidence of people speculating about them out of
>> earshot (it's natural, we all do it, meaning no harm); obviously I
>> didn't.
>> Oscar Wilde supposedly said (via Monty Python, my main source of news),
>> "the only thing worse than being talked about is not being talked
>> about."
>> To which I respond, "Are you sure?"
>>
>> I think that part of living through sub-optimal things is keeping your
>> own
>> morale up by telling yourself your morale is good until it gets a chance
>> to improve. And maybe another part of that is that those experiences are
>> in a raw part of your brain that gets boxed up, nailed closed, and
>> shoved
>> into a far back corner. That's maybe an interesting data point, but like
>> I
>> said earlier, I probably don't want to be a test subject.
>>
>> I did not read any further, I don't want to re-live that any more.
>> 1991-95
>> is good, 1997, not so much.
>>
>> Mario, Uxi, seriously, thanks. Uxi, I try to maintain a sense of humor
>> about myself, so I have to ask: In saving that for the last 16 years or
>> so, what folder did you have it saved in, "Epic Personality Meltdowns?"
>> :-)
>>
>> Finally, one last scientific observation (since I am a test subject,
>> like
>> it or not). My observations above remind me of why I don't want to read
>> the 1248 material. Memory is a tricky thing, and if I can avoid muddying
>> up the ones I've got left, that's probably prudent.
>>
>> I'm going to get some aspirin and feed the dogs.
>>
idea you would be able to answer it across time as well.
Speaking of FATs, I used to have nightmares where the FAT in my brain was
corrupted and I could no longer be sure which of my memories were valid,
or were other memories mis-assigned to that marker. I could tell this in
the nightmare because a grid of red dots would be superimposed over my
visual field that was somehow the "system warning" in my brain that the
FAT was corrupted and nothing was what I thought it was. When I woke up
from these nightmares I could not snap out of it, but the terror would
remain that I wouldn't really know if this was my bed, if that was really
a "telephone," and I would have to go back to sleep to allow my brain to
reset. I remembered that recently when considering the rash of TV shows
that have people with "chips implanted in their brains." I hate it when my
brain's FAT gets corrupted. And you thought you were crazy.
Re: Knox Mar Det '97, that constellation of time-date-location makes me
want to think, but I will settle for, I spent a lot of time with Roger
Angell from the Mar Det around that time, did you know him?
Also, someone back during that exile period said to me, "If you meet the
Dave on the road, kill the Dave." Whether he was comparing me to Buddha or
just wanted to kill me, I don't recall.
> It was in my Traveller/TNE/archive folder... First on my Athlon 900 then
> my
> P4 VAIO and now on my macs and in the cloud on my Gdrive. After losing the
> FAT on my old Pentium 60 in the mid 90s, I became obsessed with manual
> backups and would burn to CD then DVD and now uploading my files from RPG
> to site archives, spreadsheets, etc. Biggest problem I have from the
> earliest era is I liked to use MS Write for some reason which usually
> leads
> to gibberish in most modern programs that I sift through before converting
> to Word or text.
>
> I was actually in Knox from May through August of 97 (in fact I remember
> picking up Regency Combat Vehicle Guide at the mall in Louisville someone
> around then) with the MarDet at the USAAC learning the Abrams so found out
> about it later when I became involved with TNE-RCES. I emailed you direct
> somewhere in 98 or 99 probably and then drifted away when my gaming group
> split up until finding COTI in 2002.
>
> - Sent from my SM-N900T
> On Mar 26, 2014 6:13 PM, <> wrote:
>
>>
>>
>> Blech.
>>
>> My head is pounding and my ears are ringing. Thanks for sending that,
>> Uxi,
>> and thanks for pointing out that that existed, Mario. While I will say
>> some things below about not wanting to read it, I am grateful that when
>> there is evidence out there that I lived on this planet and spoke with
>> people I have the chance to see it and be reminded of things I had
>> forgotten. Whether I enjoy it or not, the truth is the truth and I wish
>> to
>> be informed by the truth.
>>
>> I read down a little bit and saw some stuff I still don't remember.
>>
>> I do remember the "going on survival rations" part. We called it
>> "Operation Mudfish," inspired by a French operation in Chad, I think,
>> but
>> I didn't remember that period until I just read about it. That would
>> have
>> been the period after the doctrine development project got shot out of
>> the
>> saddle by ATSC and before our first distance learning contract.
>>
>> (During the late doctrine development period I do have the separate
>> memory
>> of the last time I ever spoke to Paul Brunette, recounted elsewhere.)
>>
>> I don't remember talking to anyone about TNE in 1997 (except Brunette,
>> above). Clearly I did. We had been building the doctrine development
>> site
>> for the Armor School around this time (95-96-97), and the WWW was still
>> newish. Either I stumbled across me, or someone else in the office said,
>> "hey Dave, your name keeps showing up over here." I don't remember
>> hearing
>> that Marc was asking around about EW, although I do remember that no one
>> ever contacted me to ask. I don't remember sending e-mails out to follow
>> up which "disappeared behind a black curtain."
>>
>> I see that I was testy and irritable and got into a "he said/he said"
>> with
>> Harold which was unnecessary.
>>
>> I also see direct evidence there of what I said in reply to Jim a couple
>> days ago, "where there is a grain of truth..."
>>
>> And I guess I owe Harold another apology beyond the one about Children
>> of
>> Earth I mentioned recently, which is "Yeah, Harold, maybe I was going
>> through my own personal hell, sorry for trying to contradict you on
>> that."
>> Probably no one likes evidence of people speculating about them out of
>> earshot (it's natural, we all do it, meaning no harm); obviously I
>> didn't.
>> Oscar Wilde supposedly said (via Monty Python, my main source of news),
>> "the only thing worse than being talked about is not being talked
>> about."
>> To which I respond, "Are you sure?"
>>
>> I think that part of living through sub-optimal things is keeping your
>> own
>> morale up by telling yourself your morale is good until it gets a chance
>> to improve. And maybe another part of that is that those experiences are
>> in a raw part of your brain that gets boxed up, nailed closed, and
>> shoved
>> into a far back corner. That's maybe an interesting data point, but like
>> I
>> said earlier, I probably don't want to be a test subject.
>>
>> I did not read any further, I don't want to re-live that any more.
>> 1991-95
>> is good, 1997, not so much.
>>
>> Mario, Uxi, seriously, thanks. Uxi, I try to maintain a sense of humor
>> about myself, so I have to ask: In saving that for the last 16 years or
>> so, what folder did you have it saved in, "Epic Personality Meltdowns?"
>> :-)
>>
>> Finally, one last scientific observation (since I am a test subject,
>> like
>> it or not). My observations above remind me of why I don't want to read
>> the 1248 material. Memory is a tricky thing, and if I can avoid muddying
>> up the ones I've got left, that's probably prudent.
>>
>> I'm going to get some aspirin and feed the dogs.
>>